I've been pretty quiet where blogging is concerned recently; maybe I've told you everything and there's nothing much to add, or maybe my life has just been sailing along on calm waters. I'd like to get back into blogging but I'm not sure how. Once upon a time I was quite obsessed with this world of blogging and now, I look back on those years I spent tirelessly scouring blog hops and lists and community websites where I would introduce myself on a daily basis, to at least ten new blogs. I was discovering, on average, around fifty blogs every week. And I loved it. The feeling of seeing a new comment from one of those newly discovered blogs was such a buzz; it made my blog stand out and it gave Crystal Jigsaw a name on the Internet.
There was a time this blog would achieve 40-50 genuine comments on each post, and I would update it on a daily basis. I wanted to be a part of all the groups, websites, communities. I was a member of American blogging forums and British blogging groups, I was in lists and ranked high and loved every minute of it. But I could never be really at the center of it all because I never had the means to fully join in; journeys to London events were never going to happen because of my personal circumstances, and so I got to the point where I realised I was missing out. It was very kind of those people to tell me I shouldn't worry about it but I did. I would read about the good times had, the new friendships formed, the awards won and the celebrity events. And I would sit at my computer and think, "It's not for me." It never will be. And I think the circles of blogging in which I was mixing just didn't suit my life. I still see all over Twitter and Facebook the marvelling at these get togethers but it doesn't bother me anymore. I've moved away from those circles and even though I made some friends along the way, I think I've learnt that sometimes we just have to accept that we can't do everything, we can't follow where we don't belong. I have a few loyal followers and readers of this blog and I know exactly who they are, and that's good. It means I can still write on here and know someone out there will read it.